I wish you would invest time

I wish you would invest some time in getting to know me; and you would realize that I am more fragile than I appeared to be, like a crack in cold marble that remains hard in the eyes of others, until one day it unexpectedly breaks; and you would start crying because for so long it was not given the option of bursting.

I wish you would invest time in getting to know me; and you would know that I am as loving as the poppies that bloom in autumn; against all odds, without anyone expecting them to be so bright and perfect.

I wish you would invest time in getting to know me; and you would know that I am not just that girl who wears yellow on her Instagram. Beneath every smile, there is a breath. Beneath every letter I write, there are a thousand hidden thoughts that tend to escape my mouth.

I wish you would take the time to get to know me; and leave us so afraid to ask the first thing that comes to mind: without feeling guilty and with remorse for wanting to be the other's. There is nothing wrong with you shouting: "I want to have you all to myself". Because despite what we have been taught, freedom can also be found alongside someone who doesn’t want to share you.

I wish you would take the time to get to know me; you would know why I like to wear necklaces made of stones so much and that breakfast is a favorite time of day.

I wish you would invest time in getting to know me; to discover that I have been happy for a long time and will be happy for much longer. Because I haven't needed you in my whole life and I'm a balanced scale without you, but I want to take the risks even though it might go wrong.

I wish you would invest time, but it is a resource more expensive than gold, more scarce than the sunny afternoons of a winter at the beach, more selfish than not knowing how to say "forgive me".